Thinking something… yes, I am writing this at 2 AM. Days turn into months, and months slowly turn into years. But one thing inside me has never really changed — my simplicity, and the girl who is still my favorite person in this world. The girl I loved.
Tonight I was thinking about heaven and hell. And a strange question came to my mind. If God asked me for one last wish before my time ends, what would I ask for?
My answer would be simple.
I would wait for my girl until my last breath. I imagine a quiet place where there are two chairs. I would sit on one chair and wait for her.
When she finally arrives, I would gently tell her to sit on the other chair.
And then I would tell her everything I never had the courage to say before — how much I used to love her, how deeply I cared for her, and how many nights I cried remembering her.
Maybe she would want to leave. Maybe she would feel uncomfortable sitting there. But just for that one moment, I would ask her to stay.
Because that would be my last wish.
And I promise, after that moment, I would let her go.
If heaven and hell truly exist, maybe God will send me to hell and send her to heaven.
And if she has made any mistake in her life, I would ask God one more thing — please remove her part of hell. Sitting with me even for that moment is already hell enough for her.
So let her go to heaven peacefully.
As for me, I will accept whatever comes next.
Because loving her was already my heaven.
— Written at 2 AM